Who am I ? Philsogmanifest
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Many years ago, when I first came to know the Lord Jesus, I thought that giving a testimony was telling someone, things about my pass. I would hear people say in church, get up and give us your testimony. I would tell people of how God had delievered me from drugs and the life style that went along with it. And in most cases I would, leave church and fall right back into the same pit. This was back in 1982, I was 19 yrs. old, 1 boy and not married. Several years of treatment centers, jail and hospitals followed. Sometimes sobriety, lasted sometimes it didn't. Life went on. I am a certified welder, from a singlemothered home who swore never to leave his kids, like my dad, had left me. And although there were times of great turmoil, because of my problems, God was faithful. He has never left, nor forsaken me. About 3 yrs.ago me and my wife Lisa seperated, we have 4 adult children together with 8 grandchildren and our adopted daughter has a little girl. Over the years I have had many trials, many of which have caused me physical injuries. I will add one of these stories, only because of the biblical aspects of forgivness that it holds. I the early 1990's I was injuried in a robbery, by someone that I thought was my friend. This injury was to my left eye, crushing my eye socket my and nose canal, by kicking me in the eye. The injuries required 4 hours of surgery and around 50,000.00, plus months of healing. I can recall my thoughts during the following 6 months, fear, revenge, anger, and lonley for God, because I had not went to church for 6 mo. Around Christmas time I asked my wife to take me to the church because I could'nt take it anymore. I remember going to the altar, no one was there but me, I told God how I felt, I wanted to kill this guy, and I couldn't forgive him. I'm not sure if this was the first time or not, but the word of the Lord came to my mind just as clear, " If I didn't fogive, when men sinned against me, my Heavenly Father would not forgive my sins" Then I can remember asking God for the strength to forgive him, and I can remember the release I felt on the inside, Peace like I've never felt before. I had almost forgot about this guy until, I was subpoenaed to testify against him for his crimes. That day in court was one of the most powerful spirituial exp. that I have had in my life, even more than the healing of my face and eye. In fact my vision is still 20/20. I can recall the States Attorney telling me that I had to put this guy away, but the only thing that I could think about was that day in church and the word of the Lord. It was all a test, to see if I trusted his word. Well I forgave Chris that day in court, and although I haven't seen him since, I pray that it had some impact on his life. Because it very hard for me to hold anger inside, without thanking God for the gift of forgiveness today. That's just a part of who I am and where God has brought me from. I've just started this internet writing stuff, and I've posted a couple of request that says a little more about me and the things I face today, which is my testimony. Who am I/You? I am a Awesome spiritual being of magnificent worth and value as a person. Grace and Peace Philsogmanifest
