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Posted by peter paul on 9/9/2007 3:35:00 AM
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my name is peter and i'm 21 and have been in alot of trouble with the law since i was 12.i got put in jail a year and a half ago for breaking into 2 houses and trying to get rid of the evidence,the d.a enhanced my charges off my juvenile charges and in court they wanted to give me 40 years in prison! GOD saved me and gave me 8 years probation.ive slowly but surely stopped using drugs first then everthing else with gods grace, strength and mercy.i have done things to be in trouble with probation and god has always saved me.after i would do something and regret it i would worry,worry,worry but my aunt was given a word from God when i first got locked up for what im on probation for "that it would not turn out the way it looked to man" and everytime i'd get worried my wife and aunt would be standing on that promise, and they just belived and told me "no" i would not go to prison, and i didn't. i have a real problem with worring... and that goes for everything, even if there reallly isn't anything i should be worried about, it gets so bad that i often get panicked and anxious, and i make myself physically ill. i am changing but its more of a 2 steps foreward one step back type of thing and my problem is that i feel like God is tired of saving me from my mistakes... i cant understand why He keeps having mercy on me time and time again, and my greatest problem with worrying is the fact i cant stop myself from thinking that God is fed up with helping me. how do i know his will for me? my aunt tells me that prison is not gods will for my life, and she's a very strong believer and is one of my spiritual leaders, but even then i find myself still questioning whether or not she's right and whether or not Gods will really isn't for me to go to prison. im trying to live for God, and i want to be around for my wife and children. And i know God's the answer. Please pray for me and help me in whatever else ways that you can. Thank you very much and God Bless.
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God is concerned most with your salvation and what you do as a witness for God and how well you treat your children and your wife (as you two are now "one").
The reason you worry is because you feel deep down that you are not in control of the situation. Even though you have prayed and are trying to live for God, you are doing things that you are having difficulty controlling. One of the reasons a lot of individuals get into trouble young or even when they are older is because they feel like their life is spinning out of control and drugs or alcohol is a way to numb the pain or escape.
There are two ways to help you with the burden of worry: one, give it to God and then let God do what he wants with you. If you still worry after you have given it to God, chances are you are still trying to hold onto it and control it yourself. Next--do what you can to work to change things- God will work along side of you but he won't necessarily jump in to solve every problem. There are consequences for every action--so if you make a mistake, be the first to own up to it and realize that God may allow prison time or whatever it takes to change you. It is not God's will that anyone should go to prison, however, it is a logical and lawful consequence for someone who has broken the law and God also must allow us to abide by the laws on earth.
Hopefully you are in a church right now and I would suggest that you get the elders of the church to pray with you. Get yourself with someone else in the church who can help you be accountable for your actions too. Your aunt seems very supportive, but I don't think God "bails" us out every time if we do something against the law. Sometimes God will step back and say "ok, if it is prison, then I will be with him in prison." God is with you always and he will be there to comfort you, but he won't always interfere with the natural course of things because if he did, then we would all be making mistakes, asking for God's grace and Christians would soon discover that we could do anything and not be accountable for it which would make it even harder for Christians not to sin.
I would also see if you can seek out some counseling because you probably do need to address the underlying reason why you got into trouble at such a young age. Chances are that you grew up in a dysfunctional home and you did not feel wanted, needed, loved or accepted and that getting into trouble with the law was a way for you to show how much you were hurting and to be able to express your anger over being so hurt in your life. As you were trying to express how much you were hurting, without realizing it, you hurt those whose homes you broke into. They will constantly look over their shoulder, check their house before they enter and have difficulty sleeping at night. It is possible that you felt justified at the time because you had such a difficult home life. You do need to address these things because you are now a husband and father and you need to be everything your family was not to you. You can't do this and be this person if you are broken yourself.
I will pray most of all for your healing, for you to receive wisdom and God's direction for your life and that you meet people now in your life that will support you and help give you the tools to be a strong Christian. Continue to read your bible daily and memorize as many verses as possible...they will come back to your mind as you are struggling with trusting God.
All the best.
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9/9/2007 10:41:11 AM
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donna, Member of Delve into Jesus since 2/11/2007
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