I'm 20. I've had a history of atheism until 17, criminal activity, I've stolen from my family underneath they're noses, due to drug addictions.

I've paid for all this. Learned my lesson and prevailed through God's trials. I'm ready to kick this habit for good and stay away from people who would bring me down with them.

But I have a problem. At this point in my life, I keep to myself. I do good things around the house and cook for my family in an effort to better myself. I stay away from negative influences, (Mostly anyone near my age it seems) for they remind me of the devil's temptations.

However I am human. I have social needs. I can't stay alone forever...I need support but...

Good things will come in time. I cannot expect them right away. I must be patient. I must show God that I am no longer who I used to be.

I suppose in reality I'm looking for love. However, God cannot control free will?

Maybe I'm not looking for love. Maybe I don't even know what I'm looking for.

The support of fellow christians is not enough for me. I can change on my own. I already HAVE changed on my own.

I'm so confused. I will be patient, and continue to stand strong against the devil's temptations and continue to delve into the lord.

EDIT: I don't need help on how to quit my drug addiction. I have taken care of this. I just feel....lonely...But I refuse to surround myself with the people who have brought me down before. So I remain alone.

5/23/2011 9:04:44 PM by Nehilanth, Member of Delve into Jesus since 5/23/2011

You need to show yourself you are no longer who you used to be, God knows.He knows the end from the beginning, No He won't control your will so it's up to you and as for love you have His, as for support from fellow christians not being enough you may be right but without their love prayer and encouragement you may stay alone....The truth is we can't do much without Him, His word say's it's not good for man to be alone, i don't mean find a wife , find a Church and grow strong till you can be around people from the past and not be tempted, we are meant to go from strength to strength not stand still and hide, He gave us this life to live and learn we need each other. God bless

5/28/2011 4:04:24 PM by mammak, Member of Delve into Jesus since 9/3/2008

You know you are never alone.
And no one is perfect, except for God.
People will let you down.
God is forever faithful.
God Created you and He knows and loves you
more than anyone ever could!
You can know Him too by reading and obeying
His Word, the Bible.

Psalm 139

1 LORD, you have tested me,
so you know all about me.
2 You know when I sit down and when I get up.
You know my thoughts from far away.
3 You know where I go and where I lie down.
You know everything I do.
4 LORD, you know what I want to say,
even before the words leave my mouth.
5 You are all around mein front of me and behind me.
I feel your hand on my shoulder.
6 I am amazed at what you know;
it is too much for me to understand.
7 Your Spirit is everywhere I go.
I cannot escape your presence.
8 If I go up to heaven, you will be there.
If I go down to the place of death, you will be there.
9 If I go east where the sun rises
or go to live in the west beyond the sea,
10 even there you will take my hand and lead me.
Your strong right hand will protect me.

11 Suppose I wanted to hide from you and said,
“Surely the darkness will hide me.
The day will change to night and cover me.”
12 Even the darkness is not dark to you.
The night is as bright as the day.
Darkness and light are the same.
13 You formed the way I think and feel.
You put me together in my mother’s womb.
14 I praise you because you made me in such a wonderful way.
I know how amazing that was!

15 You could see my bones grow as my body took shape,
hidden in my mother’s womb.
16 You could see my body grow each passing day. You listed all my parts, and not one of them was missing.
17 Your thoughts are beyond my understanding. They cannot be measured!
18 If I could count them, they would be more than all the grains of sand.
But when I finished, I would have just begun...
23 God, examine me and know my mind.
Test me and know all my worries.
24 Make sure that I am not going the wrong way.
Lead me on the path that has always been right.
Psalm 139:1-18;23-24

1/9/2012 9:50:09 PM by Ignited~Faith, Member of Delve into Jesus since 2/20/2008

You now have to be that light around those who are lost. If you separate yourself from those you see as sinners who can they look to for guidance? To them may be the only Jesus in the groups of people you used to be around. We aren't put in the world to hide from sinners but to be light for them to see the true light which is Jesus. In time God will give you someone to spend your life with but as of right now He will work on you to be able to love someone else. You can go out and socialize, but just don't do the things you used to do, show others the change God made in you it's a gift to all people around you, not just you.

1/15/2012 10:16:16 AM by chris_sims1981, Member of Delve into Jesus since 10/11/2011