This may sound silly to you but when I am alone I often think about my Grandparents who have gone to heaven. My thoughts always seem to wonder if they know what is going on in my life. Sometimes I sit and wait and close my eyes hoping to feel their presence. I think about how they would tell me how beautiful my daughter is and that we are going to be OK. I have made so many wrong choices along the way but for 2 years now I vowed to listen to Jesus for every move I make and to wait on God's timing. I think back when I was a child growing up and seeing them and how the world was so different and how innocent I was and how I knew Jesus and even as a child I lived a Christian life.
Does anyone else do this? Or am I just worn out. Ha! but true.

5/28/2010 6:00:37 PM by butterfly2000, Member of Delve into Jesus since 12/4/2009

I don't do it so much with my grandparents as I do with my parents. I lost my parents 3 weeks apart in 2001 while I was dealing with a severe back injury. The back healed, although I reinjured it last year, but I still think about my parents all the time. Just tonight I was in the shower thinking about having to go to court tomorrow to force workers comp to authorize the surgery I need and not the cheapest one they can get away with, and all I want is for my dad to be there with me. I pray that I will feel his presence with me tomorrow to ease my fears. Now is that wrong? Shouldn't the presence of the Holy Spirit be enough to calm my fears? I believe that God is big enough to accept the fact that we may find our loved ones comforting. God knows I call out to Him constantly for help; I'm sure He understands this deep rooted desire to have my father's presence around during a stressful time, especially since I also have prayed that the Holy Spirit will be holding me close.

6/6/2010 10:16:15 PM by kcgodlyman, Member of Delve into Jesus since 6/17/2009

Thank you for responding. I hope you felt your Dad presence while you were in court. Do you have brothers or sisters to be with you while you are going through all of this? I hope everything went well in court. Keep me posted about your surgery date and I will be praying for you.
I am sure that your Mom and Dad are proud of you for standing strong. I love this site. It makes me feel good to be able to vent and communicate with Christians.
Thank you again.

6/9/2010 7:15:39 PM by butterfly2000, Member of Delve into Jesus since 12/4/2009