I've been a Christian for 6 years and when I was 18 two years ago I fell into sexual immorality and committed adultery and when I was 19 I was still lost in sin and gave myself away to another woman, this years January the Lord snatched me out of another dangerous oncoming relationship and I repented and have received deliverance and have been trying to follow hard after Him ever since. It's been a long 10 months learning how to resist my pride again and it's still awkward drawing near to God and I admit sometimes it's still not easy bringing myself to read the word since before I knew a ton of it.

Also, 5 months into this 10 month journey so far I met a Christian woman who was also beat up and we talked for a bit and have dated for 5 months now and she really is a great woman but the problem is my heart is question if this is proper timing. I know my relationship with Jesus isn't the strongest it's been and right now it's not I care for her a lot but to be honest I at times feel like I need to focus solely on God for quite sometime.

I admit, my fear of trusting God with bringing that special one into my life is what lead into sexual immorality and has lead me to sin many times in the past. I am seeking the Father's advice and also my brothers and sisters in the Lord advice on this. My fear is letting go of her I'll lose her but also I know that I'll be completely free where my love and affection which is still really vulnerable needs to be directed towards God.

11/13/2009 10:55:13 AM by Aarond, Member of Delve into Jesus since 11/12/2009

If you fear temptation then RUN FROM IT! The Holy Spirit may be trying to tell you that you are not ready for a relationship with anyone but Him. Follow your conscience and the rest will come out in the wash. Right now it is most important that you remain true to your faith and focus on rebuilding your relationship with God.

11/16/2009 11:22:10 AM by kcgodlyman, Member of Delve into Jesus since 6/17/2009

Not too many understand the power of temptation, but many will condemn those who are driven by it. The solution to your fears is in the place that you are in Christ Jesus. The only way that you are going to be able to put your past behind you and go on is to truly repent from this and renew your commitment to the Lord Jesus. I had lived a life of sin and continue to live a lifestyle of sin even after receiving the Lord. It wasn't until my heart was convicted by the Holy Spirit and by the word of God that I was deliver from living a life of sinful ways. Is has been 16 years, I am not perfect but the things I did I do no more, I am free, deliver and confident in God's grace. He promised that you will find Him when you seek after Him with all your heart. This do not happens without your willingness as He said in Isaiah 1, verse 19th. God is willing to give you the best life the rest is up to you.

11/18/2009 2:55:23 PM by wmlugo, Member of Delve into Jesus since 10/13/2009