For the past 5 years I have had somebody in my life that has used, played, lied and manipulated my heart basically I was the friends with all the benefits including sexually. It's true we put ourselves in the situation to allow this to happen to us, but me being whom I am held on and allowed this to continue because I could not for the life of me understand how somebody could have a friend who would stand by them through thick in thin, even when you know in your heart they are wrong and just take kindness for weakness. He owes me a great deal of money and apart of me holding on was due to that money, but I have found that he spent his little money on what he wanted to spend it on and acted like he was completely broke so that I would take care of what really needed to be paid. I bought a little book in my Church bible book store that states the Power of Forgiveness, awesome book but long story short I sent him that book and wrote in it basically saying I forgive and forget your debt to me, May God always be with you. The hard part of that is I really loved my friend and because of what was done to me, my heart has hardened. I talk to the Lord everyday and pray and I am a work in progress, this situation is not completely over due to the fact that he has a lot of stuff here at my place and I will have to deal with him face to face, but I ask God for the strength when he comes because this particular person is one who, you can walk in on him cheating with another woman and he would try to change that as it was your fault you walked in. God is good and I know he will be with me, not to mention God showed me signs along the way and I chose to ignore them. So a lot of this was my fault for allowing all this to happen to me. There is a SOLUTION to every PROBLEM & the solution is usually before the problem arises. Just as I wrote this the same day this so called friend appears and what do I do, something to completly contradict trying to forgive and move on, I slept with him and after that all the insecurities set in my heart. I need the strengh to complely end this situation. I should never give the power of a man to control my feelings.

12/9/2008 11:43:04 AM by LV, Member of Delve into Jesus since 12/9/2008

how you doing? first i should start by saying god bless you and may you be able to stand in your times of temptation anything not of god is temptation you know?or should i say that goes against god. When us as men are not trying to walk in faith and in line with the word then there is only one other person to give your time to,would you agree? I BELIEVE when you honestly and truely seek the lord and thats anybody all old things are gone fully because you have and image to uphold that image being christ. Would do away with all things that keep you from getting closer to him.Would you swim cross a river full of aligators?Are would you wait on the boat? Jesus is the boat ,wait on him. You could even swim across if you'd like because" it's your choice" you might make it. you might not, even though you cant see the boat comeing yet it's comeing so you going to keep takeing a chance until you get caught in a death roll or will you wait on the boat, and you might even get tired, frustrated,mad,or what not ,but it's comeing.You are farr more precious to the lord than any man or satisfaction of the flesh could do.And when you start to trust in him the devil will flee only to return as something else that god will warn you about trust me even you said you ignored the signs. BE strong Lv how we live is how we die

12/10/2008 1:35:17 PM by jodieblunt, Member of Delve into Jesus since 12/2/2008

Jodieblunt, thank you for the response and yes what you are saying is true. As a woman and a single mom and as I wrote it's really hard to consume the thought that when you are good someone, that person just runs (yes I have allowed) but it really saddens me. However I am not a vengefull person because I believe what you reap you sow.. KARMA!!! I am a work in progress and I do not blame God for any of this because I have put myself in this situation. You know sometimes I wonder why people come into our lives and I always look for the good in people and towards this partucualar person everything out of my mouth and thoughts are negative, he even had the nerve to say you are not the same person I met, (well yes true after lie after lie etc...) but it needs to come to an end it just really saddens me and I talk to God every day. Again thank you for the response and have a Blessed Day.
LV

12/10/2008 5:14:11 PM by LV, Member of Delve into Jesus since 12/9/2008

you're welcome we all struggle with issues its all on how u handle them i guess? but nobody's perfect .so just keep praying and talking to god. he listens....and he knows whats best for you..................

12/10/2008 8:40:35 PM by jodieblunt, Member of Delve into Jesus since 12/2/2008

well how have things been going with your battle? hope things are better for you and your child.i was just checking and to remind you god loves you

12/24/2008 12:15:35 AM by jodieblunt, Member of Delve into Jesus since 12/2/2008

Good morning Jodieblunt,
Thank you for checking on me and my son. Well the update is that as time has gone on it gets much easier. I know God loves me and he knows I am not perfect. However at this stage in my life I can no longer entertain the thought in my mind about my friend. I have been unemployed now for the past 6 months and that is my main focus. You know human nature is funny to me because now that I have put that issue of my friend on the back burner all of a sudden he wants my time and attention. All I can do is pray for him. Today I can't wait for bible study. So how are things with you? Are you ready for Christmas? I hope you have a wonderful and blessed day.
LV

12/24/2008 10:07:42 AM by LV, Member of Delve into Jesus since 12/9/2008

well thats good to know, yea i think that alot of people will be without work here shortly.And IT'S okay to suffer you know it makes us srtonger therefore espect to be blessed. I'm glad that you and your child are ok and may god bless you both.And as for your friend i think you should get a commitment out of him if possible and go from there.....................................god bless you and merry xmas

12/24/2008 12:52:49 PM by jodieblunt, Member of Delve into Jesus since 12/2/2008